From sand to stone and rock to clay.

I got my calendar writings wrong, actual liberation date should be on 30th Oct instead of 6th Oct. I feel fried hahaha what a word fried reminds me of bird's blog. I am not happy, the haze is making me all sticky and sweaty and hot, trg is getting into me, staying back for chinese revision everyday after school till 30th is the bomb, watching goong is sad. My life very shit leh why did i join table tennis why did i take up hcl why didn't i take a club cca and slack all day long why didn't i opt for express chi, all these loads and burdens will be lifted. I hate to be caught up in the C subject. I didn't ask for that, all i asked was to be able to take it in my stride and be a good follower. Now all that has happened to me a few months ago is gonna happen to someone else. I do yearn to take control of the C subject but since things are already like that, maybe they are meant to be? The feeling of being used of sucks, the feeling of being betrayed, being cheated.. I found it so hard to give it up, to leave it as it is but i did it, i guess. And now you're throwing back to me. Hello? Has it ever occured to you that maybe i'm the biggest loser? Can't you feel for me, can't you understand the pain i had to go through by myself when i heard the news. Even now, i still feel the pain when people come up to me and tell me that they think i'm C. Everything's repeating, really. Maybe i'm gonna be stupid for once and really give it up. I'm able to see different things as a follower, some things that you'll never get as a leader. Taking charge is tiring, i'd talk to my friends for some advice. Life's so much better when you know you've got friends and that they'll help you make the right decision. Friends keep me strong and i'm really thankful for that :)

This is such a chunky and emotional post. I've been abandoning newspapers and epl for the past few days for papers, weekends for epl thanks to the interference of the gameboy, chinese revision in school and at home and trainings. My bro told me ytd about the chelsea reading match and i was cracked up omg please top news of epl at the moment i've never heard about 2 goalkeepers getting injured and a player becoming the goalie for sooooooooo long. John Terry can pass off as the goalie, he looks every bit like one. So i wenta read the papers they said Petr Cech almost died i got a shock la, he's gonna be out for about a year. Good good good for man u. But all the top clubs are kinda struggling now even man u so all are on par, it's like the battle of which-team-gets-unluckier.

Buhbye, i'm out!