Unforgettable.

Righhht. I've come to a point where i can't stand my mother. I know it's wrong, she gave birth to me blah blah blah. BUT I CAN'T STAND IT I CAN'T. Every conversation with her ends up in a quarrel. I tell her stuff, what happened to me during the day and all, esp when i've a bad day. Then instead of consoling me, she'd preach all sorts of nonsense to me that make me a whole lot worse and i'll shout at her, retort.

I'm not a bad child.

That's why whenever she comes home, i will not want to say hi to her cause either she doesn't reply OR SHE'LL ASK WHETHER MY BRO'S HOME. And she keeps asking me what do i do on internet. She doesn't know what a blog is. Look what her working life has done to her.

I try my hardest to be close with her, cause i don't want to be close to my father. I don't know whether should i behave this way. Well, he did something wrong and i think he's still carrying on with the mistake. Can't the both of you get a life?

And my brother, he was so emo that day i felt so sad just sitting beside him. He's having problems with his three year gf. Okay, like on the verge of breaking up kinda thing. That day, he was playing sad love songs on his guitar. I couldn't help but just sing along with him. He deserves a better girl. I secretly wish my bf will be like him. I think my bro's a damn good bf la. In terms of looks, he's handsome to me. In terms of personality, that's his best quality. Look, he's already a sweet brother, what more a bf? I could never ask for more.

A few weeks ago, he heard that i gave my $50 to the domestic helper, he bought food home and cooked for me. ( WHAT THE HELL MY MOTHER JUST GAVE ME CHOCOLATES AND SAID "HEY THIS IS FOR YOU" IN A VERY SWEET TONE. ?!?!?! HELLO, WE JUST QUARRELLED MUM! SHE'S HUMMING A TUNE NOW TOO. WHOA WHOA WHOA I CAN'T TAKE THIS DRASTIC CHANGE. ) Okay, back to topic. Yes my bro cooked for me. The meal was heavenly. Simple fare but it's the thought that counts. I love you brother, even more than i love myself! He's done a lot of nice things on the whole. For example, always giving me money ( not lending, GIVING ) and the amount's not like $2. If it's $2, i'd be happy also k. Whenever i go out with him, he'd pay for everything, really everything. Knowing that i treat Man U as a part of myself, he even offers to buy the jersey for me. Sweetness i tell you. Do you know how ex it is, go find out. I'm quite pooooor so it's a big thing. On Sunday, he was smsing me when he left for his driving lesson. He asked me whether i wanted ps2 games ( my type ). I didn't want cause i wanted him to save up for my present. He said "Nevermind la, promise you your present will still be the same. Don't want you to feel lonely at home." Cause i was complaining that day i felt like the only child or smtg and i always have the whole house to myself with parents out the whole damn day and only coming back at midnight. Think i'll depend a lot on him next time. ( Eve just called. Just hung up.. after an hour. What a heart to heart talk it was :D ) Okayyyy, quite duh that i'm close to my bro and i'm glad that we are despite the close to 7 years gap. Brother, i know you love me too. And we have the similar past time. Playing soccer on ps2 tgt hahaha. He's good, i'm good, both are as good! Having you beats having a hundred good friends :) Blood's thicker than water man.

Two different feelings before and after the first 4+ paragraphs. I felt like killing my mum just now but i feel so at ease now after the talk with Eve and the long para about Bro.

Eve, there's definitely a possibility we'll drift and won't be close as ever. But i'll be strong and prove to you that not being in the same class isn't a factor in our friendship. I'll miss you. We've been tgt for 4 years as classmates and 2 years as chinese partners. Look how time flies man. And please stop reminding me about the "You're so ugly" incident. You're a great friend that i'd love to keep so we better keep in contact and update each other about our daily lives next year, talk about our new friends and teachers etc. Let's go for christian concerts tgt with Mary, Ry... :D Do homework and end up sleeping or fooling around like we said on the phone just now hahaha. We will still be good friends next year so don't worry too much. Don't chuck me aside when you have new cool friends ah. Love you Heart Lover!