So get back back back to where we last stand.

you're some kind of wonderful,
you're won-der-ful.

That is btw, a High Five song. Lol, yes, that three girls two guys show where they entertain kids. HAPPENED to catch the last part, which is the song, quite cutEzZz.

And oh man, i'm having moodswings again, since last night.. I'll never have a good day ahead as long as i have a bad night. I kept waking up! Emeline, if you're reading this, i'm sorry about the phone call. Bad day started with Ry, yesterday. I broke down because of you la wahlao. Then Emeline was so freaked out. Talked to her for a while then things started to get bad. You said things i didn't like or i thought otherwise and i was an emo being then because i was missing Philicia a lot at the same time too.

What happened last year was the best i ever had and it's just difficult to believe that everything's gone now. I sound like a lesbian BUT I'M NOT. Normal people can miss people too right. I even remember the smses, calls, outings where we went out almost everyday before you left for Shanghai. The paper and straw hearts you folded. One was even black, cause you said your heart's black. That's smtg i'll never forget. To think after all that happened, i'm just an aqquaintance. You may think i'm not close to you but you are close to me. After a year, i still think this way. Thanks to me, we've drifted apart so much.

I don't dare to get close to anyone now. It just takes so much to trust someone. And it's sad to hear from you that i'm not close to you at all after all the calls this holidays. Everytime i'm bored or i suffer from sudden insomnia, you're the first i'd call. Two people. I'm so lost now. And i feel like shit, i've got no one to talk to about it cause i've just fallen out (in my case) with that one person whom i'd tell everything to. Quite pathetic i know, only one.

Anyway, after all that, struggled to sleep and i kept waking up in the middle of the night. Sucha bad night already. Training just had to make it worse. Played matches towards the end, lost both. Shit please, i regarded them as SN somemore and i lost? Omg. I broke down after each match. I don't think i should play singles.

However, the night got better and i watched shows i loved. Kept my mind off things, hope trg will be better tmr. Staying up late tonight. Have to watch Man U's Do Or Die match with Benfica. Man U, you have to win if no i'd freaking cry and it'll make my night worse and i'll be emo again. Why is every Champions League match so late. That time was Man U against Lille, wahlao they drew 0-0. I stayed up for it. The match was at 335am. It's the same now..

Meeting Jiji, Soup and Rachel for lunch before trg tmr, at 1130. I've to wake up at 1030? OH, and my clothes won't match tmr! Maroon and blue fbts?! Others are still washing. Ack. Dear God, if we're playing matches tmr, i hope i'll win every match or at least put up a good fight and that it will be a better day. Amen.