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Well it's tuesday and .......... the fish hasn't died yet, all hail long life expectancy! HAHA. I'm proud of you salmon fillet. Persevere gogogo!

My right upper arm muscle only has one more day to recover/ recuperate before i've trg on thursday and comp on friday. Omg everything means so much now, if i don't go for trg KJK will say i'm not serious or ready for anything, if i go there's a very high chance of straining the muscle further. And if i don't play up to standard on friday, i'm gone for the subsequent ones. All the 'if(s)' just have to spill in. There's 4 singles, not 3. I WANT TO PLAY HOR, IT'S MY LAST YEAR FOR GOODNESS SAKE.

I can already feel the muscle on the verge of tearing. Thurs trg, fri comp, mon comp wah best i can kiss my arm goodbye. I don't know what to do, how?

I wouldn't have pushed myself so hard during sat's OT if i knew my arm will be in this state. Remorse kicks in boooooo.

My f&n totally sucked after 2nd marking, 1st marking was WHOA wink wink. Friday marks the end of TA and the start of Research kill me kill me. All the tests are streaming in one by one and you know, this time of the year is ALWAYS the hardest. I had 3 years to adjust and adapt yet till now, i've no idea how to manage my time. Yeah i know... priorities. Isn't it clear what my top priority is now? AHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I think imma get run down flat during meet the parents in march if i don't reflect some form of enthusiasm in my common tests' results. English is killing me, HOW COME GOT TEST EVERY WEEK?! And all those teeny weeny practices, why is it so similar to our preparation for chi o's last year hahaha pengzzz. Drill drill drill, it is mentally + physically draining and tiring manz.

Okay shit i'm supposed to do f&n.

Anna got very sick today and she blamed me (i accept the blame HAHA). Cos the whole of last week, i was terribly sick, esp monday and tuesday. Therefore i'm the root cause. First you get sore throat then ulcer (i can't rmb if sore throat or ulcer comes first) then flu then feel feverish but no fever THEN MC ON WEDNESDAY. Hahaha i was absent last wed and Anna just told me she's not coming tmr (wed). It's a curse! The Candice cum Wednesday MC Curse. You're next.

Take care k, i'll buy you more cups of hot milo from pizza stall! I've never spent a day in school without you (s3s4), cos i'm always the one absent instead. Tmr first time you absent leh youre so healthy! I'll finally get to taste the empty feeling tmr ahh bad day bad day I'LL BE SO LOST. (i sound like anna's my only friend and i cling onto her all day long but anyway i really cling onto her all day long, that's why she got my virus haha)